ninteenth rift

[chronosexual]

Private. Moderate Security.

After appearing and disappearing, Ianto has returned to New Moore. And he's not going away this time, either. I couldn't be happier having him back. I'm having trouble deciding whether it's a good thing or not that he doesn't seem to remember being here before, but at least this time, he's come from a closer place in my timeline, but so close to the end of his own. And I fear for that. Honestly, I do. Because someday he may leave again and there will be nothing that I can do to stop him from dying.

But maybe this is my chance somehow. An opportunity to save him. I know what happens, when it happens and the after. I don't quite know how to keep him safe, yet. Should I tell him to trust me and leave in the event that he does return to where he came from? Should I tell him how he dies? The Doctor might not like that, but I don't give a damn. I almost ripped apart time and space once for him, and I'd do it again in an instant. Losing him once was terrible. Losing him a second time was hell. I can't bear to think about what it would do to me if I were to lose him a third time.
/private

Sorry I've been quiet. I've been a little... preoccupied lately. I've been showing my lovely colleague Ianto Jones from back home around and making sure that he's had a thorough welcome to New Moore. Isn't he adorable? I've always wanted my own Welshman.

So because I didn't say it before, Happy New Year, everyone!

Private to Ryoji. HIGH Security.
Sorry I haven't been in much. You still doing okay over there? Not getting lonesome, are you?

Comments

[chronosexual]

You don't understand. It's my fault that he died.

I can stop it. I can change it. I can save him.

[allons_y_alonso]

We don't know where people go when they leave here, Jack, but if they come back they've got no memories of the island. They don't remember their visits. Telling him now won't help him if he leaves.

[chronosexual]

There's got to be something. Something. Subconsciously, maybe. Maybe... maybe when they return they get their memories wiped.

[allons_y_alonso]

Why wipe them on the way in and not the way out?

I'm not saying there's no way to help him, Jack. But telling him... that's not one of the ways.

[chronosexual]

Because who's going to believe them about a world where no one is real?

You don't know that, Doctor. You can't know that.

[allons_y_alonso]

I can.

I'm old enough to have made most of the universe's classic mistakes, Jack. I'm sorry -- I'm so sorry -- but believe me. This is one of them.

[chronosexual]

What if it were Rose? Wouldn't you do anything... anything to protect her?

[allons_y_alonso]

Yes. But knowing the hour of your death isn't an easy thing to cope with. That's one of the things I would protect her from. I'm not saying you shouldn't protect him, Jack. I'm telling you that this would be the wrong way to go about it. Teach him. Prepare him for what he has to face. But don't tell him. Not in so many words.

[chronosexual]

How do I do that without telling him what he's going to be facing? And if he does get his mind erased then what's the harm in telling him?

[allons_y_alonso]

Tell him there's a threat! You're worried he might be badly hurt! But lie about the rest, Jack. I can't say it more simply than that.

The problem is what he'd go through in the meantime.

Jack.

If I leave the island, I've got days at best, myself.

Trust me when I say it's better not to know.

[turnedleft]

And what's that mean then?

[allons_y_alonso]

Donna! What are you doing snooping about a private conversation?

[chronosexual]

And if someone could tell you how to avoid it, you mean to tell me that you wouldn't take it? You?

[chronosexual]

Not gonna lie, I'm wondering that a bit myself.

[turnedleft]

That can't be a serious question, you know why, answer what I asked!

[turnedleft]

It's not always intentional.

[allons_y_alonso]

I wouldn't. The price is too high, Jack. I've seen it firsthand, and not just the once.

[allons_y_alonso]

You don't want to know.

Anyway not going anywhere anytime soon, am I?

[turnedleft]

So you say.

[chronosexual]

Then I guess that makes you a better man than I, Doctor.

If there were the slightest chance that I could save his life, you'd better believe that I would tear apart the universe to make it happen. And God help the man who gets in my way.

[allons_y_alonso]

Donna... can you trust me if I tell you that, in my place, you'd do the same thing I did?

Knowing this would be worse for you than any headache.

[allons_y_alonso]

I'm not getting in your way, Jack. I'm trying to help you. And I'm not a better man. Just an older one, who's seen where that path leads. Recently.

[chronosexual]

You're trying to stop me. How is that helping anyone?

[turnedleft]

Course I'd do the same thing, idiot, I AM YOU.

I don't care about the headaches, I care about you.

[allons_y_alonso]

I'm advising you. You're as free to ignore me as you always are, Jack. It's not that simple.