I know.

At the time, I thought it was... a cry for help. He didn't intend anyone to be hurt, except, possibly, me. And he didn't injure anyone. I didn't want one isolated moment to ruin the trust he'd built here. To ruin his relationship with his brothers, or the support of a team that I thought might keep him on the level.

But that's an explanation, not an excuse. I knew what I was doing when I chose to keep things quiet. I'm sorry, Jack.