thoughtformed | [text message for Xion]

To: Roxas
Subj: Um...

Of course we're friends!

I'm worried too. Everything is happening so fast. I ran into that masked boy, and then Riku posted about those strange creatures showing up, and now Aqua is here... and I learned all sorts of things from Lea a couple days ago. Everything is getting so confusing! I don't really understand what's going on.

Maybe we can try and figure it out together.

To: Xion Subj: Things are not okay Good. Thanks. ...you saw him too? Who is he? I saw him and he didn't want to give me any answers. I saw the creatures, too. The creatures led me to the boy but I don't know how or why. And then Lea showed me some things and I mean he's Lea. I can't keep calling him Lea, it's too weird. And then Riku and Aqua and I'm hearing all of these things for the very first time and I still don't remember you and my head hurts really, really bad. It doesn't make sense. Nothing makes sense and I'm getting really tired of not knowing what's going on. ...I'd like that though, if we could figure it out together. Where would we even start though?

To: Roxas
Subj: I know.

Oh, Roxas...

I don't know who that boy is. But he called me Ven. Aqua says his name is Vanitas. But I've never heard of him before. I guess he must be the source of all those creatures. Lea... Lea knows a lot, doesn't he? He was trying to explain things to me, but... maybe it would be better if he talked to both of us. At the same time. I want answers as badly as you do, Roxas. But if you're having headaches... that's not good. You aren't feeling weak or anything, are you?

I think we need to start with Lea. Lea ... and Riku.

To:Xion Subj: Let's fix it Vanitas huh? I've never heard of him before either. He wouldn't confirm that he was causing all of the creatures to appear, but he also wouldn't take off that stupid helmet to talk to me. If that's not suspicious I don't know what is. ...he called you Ven? Aqua called me Ven. And then Riku told me that Ven was "the other guy" in Sora's heart. I'm the only one in Sora's heart, right? Why is there another guy? If there's another guy, why did I have to go back? Why did all of this have to happen this way? Why do I look like him? I'm my own person. I don't want to look like someone else. Lea knows too much. And Lea told me a lot of things I didn't want to know, and I'm almost sorry I asked. But...we should talk to him. But we gotta compare notes before we go to him. ...no. Not weak. Just...there's a lot of weird stuff going on with my head over the last couple of days. I keep seeing images and things I don't remember ever living through, but they're not in the right order. Lea we can talk about, sure, but do we have to talk about Riku??

To: Roxas
Subj: We can try.

I want to know more about him. But we'll have to be careful. Oh, Roxas, Riku told me that! I just remembered. I was there, too... you, me, and Ven. But I don't know why. Riku has told me over and over we need to be saved. I guess we're all in Sora's heart... but I don't know why, either. How could both of us look like a boy we've never even met?

... okay. As long as you're not feeling weak... it sounds like your memories are coming back. Just keep talking to us. Me, and Lea. We'll help you, okay? We'll do everything we can.

But yes, Roxas. We need to talk about Riku. I'm starting to put the pieces together, but I want to hear from you why you hate him so much.

To: Xion Subj: Try hard. We'll be fine. I just want to know what his deal is and if that means watching him and approaching him a few times, then that's what we'll do. We're kind of responsible by obligation, aren't we? ...wait, what?? How does Sora have enough room in there for everybody? It's not like a heart hotel or something, is it? Well okay wait, no, you're right. I don't know why we both look like a boy we've never met, but it really, really bothers me. I want to look like myself. ...what if bad memories come back though? Do I want those? You and Lea know everything, and I know there's something you guys aren't telling me. Something big. ...I don't want to talk about Riku, Xion. I can't. He's not a good guy.

To: Roxas
Subj: ... what does it even mean to fix it?

Aqua said he's strong. We shouldn't take any chances.

Roxas... if there's something we're not telling you, it's ... it's because you're not ready. You need to remember... which means bad memories as well as good. You can't just pick and choose what you want... I don't think that's how memories work. You have to ... you have to trust us, okay? I really want you to remember. And I think Lea does, too. If you remember... it will help explain why I'm in Sora's heart, too.

He isn't a bad guy either, Roxas! I know he messes up a lot, but he's trying to help. Why do you hate him? Tell me. Please.

To: Xion Subj: ...maybe we should ask Axel We're strong, too. We can definitely handle him. What makes you guys think I'm not ready? Is it really that bad? I do trust you guys, but it's kind of hard, you know? I don't know what I'm supposed to remember...what memories are mine and what are someone else's. You want to know why I don't remember a lot of things, Xion? Riku's a huge part of that. Riku's the one who showed up in Never Was. Riku's the one who cheated during our fight. Riku's the one who...I don't really know how, but I know it's his fault I ended up where I ended up.

To: Roxas
Subj: Roxas... it's Lea now, not Axel.

You really think so? We haven't even seen him fight. We don't know how dangerous he might be!

... I don't know if it's bad ... it just might be hard, and even a little scary. But I know that feeling. My memories are all messed up too, just like yours. We're going to figure this out together, okay? You and me. I just... I don't know how long it's going to take.

Your ... your fight? You two ... fought? ... can you tell me why? Do you remember?

To: Xion
Subj: No way. And he doesn't know how dangerous we can be. That's the advantage we have over him, Xion. He won't know what hit him if we need to. ...you promise? Promise me we'll do it together? I don't really know what it all means or if I even really want to know. I mean I do want to know but everyone's making it sound like maybe I'm better off not knowing. Is that true? Wouldn't it be better to ask Riku?

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