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[redwinekindofgirl]

When someone dies... someone that you were very close to... does it mean something's broken inside you if you can't feel that sad about it?
I've tried, but I think I was already done mourning him before he was killed.
And he's really gone now, back home, I mean. But... I'm not sad.
Not really.

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[tookthename]

It sounds horrible, but sometimes if you were already in mourning for someone their death can almost be...a relief. It's not bad to not feel that sad, at least I think.

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[redwinekindofgirl]

I guess that's what it is... He'd just lost all of his hope, you know? He saw the world was dying and he let it take him too.

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[tookthename]

I'm sorry for your loss. It isn't easy watching someone waste away like that.

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[redwinekindofgirl]

I think it was worse that he just let it happen.

[chronosexual]

Sometimes, when people I know leave, I actually find myself a little relieved. Because even though they're not in my life anymore, they can at least be somewhere they know in a life they know.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Oh, he was never here. He was my boyfriend. Perry Kelvin. He died back home.

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[miracleinkneehighs]

it takes time sometimes

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[redwinekindofgirl]

To start feeling sad about it, or to stop?

[dontmindmepleasecontinue]

It makes sense to me, in the world you come from. If it's something you felt sure was coming, if it was not a question of if it would happen, but simply a matter of when - death could be... a relief, simply an end to the suspense.

It doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you - it's the situation that's broken. That's why your reaction doesn't seem normal.

[redwinekindofgirl]

Maybe you're right.
But very few things seemed normal, or how they should have been.