http://orphan-moon.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] thoughtformed2011-07-29 06:34 pm
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I'm sick of this place.

I'm sick of this hot weather, sick of being stuck on this rock, sick of never getting enough sleep at night, sick of this damn cough, sick of never knowing what Hell we get dreamed into next, and sick of watching people vanish left and right with no idea of where they're vanishing to.  Even shit like a cruise or a lottery turns out to be some kind of sick taunt, a reward being dangled in front of us so we take enough rope to hang ourselves.  I've had it. 

I've fucking had it.

I'm going out tonight, and everybody had better stay the fuck out of my way.
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[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-07-29 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
What the Hell do you want from me, then? It ain't like I'm gonna be good company. Why do you need to tag along?

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
I want to make sure you're okay.

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
Too late. I'm not okay. I haven't been okay in going on four years. And nothing you can do is going to change that. Shit breaks sometimes. That's just how it is.

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Stop.

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
That's enough.

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
Atsumi might be gone now, and things might be looking good, but you can't keep doing this to yourself. It's not just about that. It's about this place, and what's going to happen to it. Atsumi didn't sacrifice herself for that.

You have to get better some time. If you don't, all that awaits you is the sanctity of death, and isn't that something you can look forward to?

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes I look forward to it more than others.

And if I knew how to get better, I would have done it already.

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:46 am (UTC)(link)
Your body might not get better.

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
How about you tell me something I don't know?

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
You have to get better in other ways, Shinjiro.

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
I don't live on the street. I don't take persona suppressants. Went to class from the moment I hit the island to the moment I turned eighteen.

I'm better.

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-07-30 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Those are all good, but... that's not what I mean.

Ah, either way, I'm coming with.

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-08-01 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
Depends. You planning on getting within reach?

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-08-01 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't ask for any company! Just 'cause you're my friend doesn't mean I want to trip over you every time I'm in a bad mood. When Aki pulls this shit, I tell him he's not my mom, and then I hit him. Why should you get anything different?

[identity profile] downtorest.livejournal.com 2011-08-01 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
No one said I should be any different.

[identity profile] orphan-moon.livejournal.com 2011-08-01 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
Then stay out of my way.

You want to make sure I'm okay? I'll be back before midnight, and after we get done with beating the crap out of Shadows for the night, you can drink with me till I'm not pissed off anymore.
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