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capтaιn kaтнerιne вeckeтт ([personal profile] themuse) wrote in [community profile] thoughtformed2013-01-06 03:39 pm
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13 ₪ [TEXT - private to Anita Blake]

I owe you an apology. Or a drink. Whichever involves just pretending that didn't happen.
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animator: (The sun is down;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-06 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
You can buy me coffee. Are you okay? That's what's most important.
themuse: (₪ put a message in a bottle)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-06 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
We talked. I'm okay right now but I should have listened to you earlier. I feel like I just splashed my personal life all over page six.
animator: (The secret will keep you alive;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-06 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not going to say "I told you so." I know how shitty it feels to have all of your personal business made public. Not much fun. Is there any way to take it down and do damage control?
themuse: (₪ find a star for my direction)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-06 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Little too late for that but I did the best damage control I could with Castle. When he shows up at work tomorrow things shouldn't be weird but do me a favor and don't mention anything to him about it. I really thought now that I was here I didn't have to worry about my personal business being public ever again.
animator: (Don't be blue;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-06 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I won't say a thing, I can promise you that. Wouldn't want to make things more awkward than they already are.

On the upside, the network isn't that big, and it's possible that some people just skimmed past it.
themuse: (☕ a moment had arrived)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-06 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
That's what I'm hoping. I know a few people already saw it but at least they're people I know I can depend on.
animator: (Move your dead bones;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-07 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
I turned a blind eye after awhile. It didn't feel right watching. What wound up happening?
themuse: (☕ i see right through you)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-07 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
I hung up on him. And I think I broke up with him, or almost anyway.
animator: (The secret will keep you alive;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-07 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Shit. I'm sorry.
themuse: (☕ let me keep my faith)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-08 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
It's fine. We worked it out, he knows things are complicated right now and he's being understanding. It's frustrating, really.
animator: (They ferry back to the shore;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-08 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Glad to hear you worked it out. What you guys have, it's worth looking after.
themuse: (☕ when i'm here on my own)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-09 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, that's what I keep hearing.
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[personal profile] animator 2013-01-09 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
I'll keep out of it as much as I can. But let me know if I can do anything for you at all, okay?
themuse: (☕ it's a little too late to hold my hand)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-09 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
I hate saying this, but maybe the best help you can be is by not staying out of it. I could use the perspective. I don't want to screw this up with him.
animator: (Shed your shrouds;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-09 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
Alright then. I'll just keep on being nosy as hell and overly opinionated.

So, lay it on me. What else went down?
themuse: (₪ is it enough to say i'm sorry)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-09 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
I tried to tell him how I felt about everything. That I'm worried about working for things here only to lose everything when we leave and that I'm worried about us getting too distracted. He has a kid at home and I don't want to be the reason he never sees her again.
animator: (You will see that you;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-09 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. I can see where you're coming from. Those concerns are valid. But before we ever came here? There are others who have been here for years.

I hate to say it. I don't even really want to think it. But I don't think we're going home anytime soon. If at all. I'm not giving up or anything, but doesn't it make sense to try and be as happy as we possibly can while we are here?
themuse: (₪ we're all walking on quicksand)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-09 07:49 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know you're right. Do you think I'm just looking for excuses as to why it won't work out? He's great but he doesn't exactly have the best track record with long term relationships.
animator: (The sun is down;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-09 03:52 pm (UTC)(link)
You might be. Maybe you should be focusing on helping him to break that streak instead?
themuse: (☕ if tomorrow falls asleep)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-09 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not that I don't trust him and I don't want to try. I'm just worried about what will happen. That this might just explode in my face.
animator: (Don't be blue;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-09 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe it will. Maybe that's not very comforting. But you could still enjoy what you have until then. Instead of being so afraid of losing it or messing something up that you never try to have it at all.
themuse: (☕ running with my high heels on)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
That's basically what Kaylee said. And I know that's true. I just have all these feelings in my heart that are battling what my head is saying and it's making things harder than they need to be.
animator: (The secret will keep you alive;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
I know that feeling all too well, unfortunately. It's not an easy fight to resolve. But your head will talk you out of a lot of things if you let it.
themuse: (☕ don't need more than i've got)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, you're right. And I want to make things work with him so I just need to concentrate on making things work.
animator: (Are wiggling off their crust;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
Right. Don't second-guess yourself so much.
themuse: (☕ til time catches up with me)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I'm not used to opening up about this kind of stuff.
animator: (And clutch rosaries;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
Honestly? Me neither, but... feel free. Always.
themuse: (₪ won't let the rain fall down)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
Likewise. Maybe it's something both of us could work on.
animator: (I'll be your reanimator;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
At least I'm in the best company.
themuse: (☕ i think we've been here before)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
At the risk of sounding mushy and emotional... Glad we're partners, Blake.
animator: (I've got the way to bring you to life;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah... me too, Beckett.

I think we're allowed a chick-flick moment every now and then.
themuse: (₪ don't look down)

[personal profile] themuse 2013-01-10 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
Let's just not make a habit out of it.
animator: (We'll dance until the morning light;)

[personal profile] animator 2013-01-10 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
You've got yourself a deal, ace.
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