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As amazing as it was to have so many new faces in town, it's much calmer without the crowds. Welcome to the few who stayed! If you have any questions that didn't get answered in that hullaballoo, I'd be more than happy to try and answer what I can.

Ah, otherwise, if you're interested in a job, the police station is hiring a night-shift dispatcher and they're always looking for more qualified officers!

[Private Audio: Sirius]

[Subdued and thoughtful, Sheska's voice is softer than it usually is when she contacts him. More serious. The last time she sounded like this was probably around the time she mentioned Mr. Hughes in casual conversation.]

Do you think I might be able to stop by the shop and talk this evening? I think I need some advice.

[Private Text: The Once-ler]

Can I ask you a question? I need some advice.

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Ah...

Huh. Well. Do you like him?

I... [She bites her lip, looking guilty.] I think so? I hadn't really thought about it much, but... The more I think about it, the more I think it's true. I don't know what to do.

Well... The obvious thing to do would be spending more time with him, don't you think? See if you feel the sparks.

[She looks up at him, startled. She hadn't thought of that. She'd asked if she could have some time to think about it.]

But isn't it... isn't it better this way? To have some space so things couldn't get in the way?

...what things could get in the way of what how?

[Right. Nouns. Proper nouns. And descriptors.]

I-I mean, if I spend more time with him, wouldn't that, er, taint the study, as it were? What if I focus so hard on seeing if there are sparks that I imagine sparks where there aren't any? O-or thinking there are more sparks than there are?

Do you think our friendship would improve greatly if we stopped interacting?

What? No! B-but I'm not... [She goes pink. Again. And goes back to watching her hands.] I-I'm not... Y-you're not asking... asking me out. Either.

Er, no, I'm not. [...this isn't going as intended.] I just mean, you're not going to figure out if you like someone and if you want to be with them by not being with them.

[She didn't think you were. She knew you never would. She's... she's past it. Yes. Still not looking at you, though.]

Well... but... th-that's how... That's how you want me to think about... about Rudy, isn't it?

That's a different situation. For one thing, I know Koizumi wouldn't do anything while you aren't fully aware of what's happening.

[She flinches, shoulders hunching, subconsciously trying to make herself smaller. It was her fault as much as his. Her shoulders that undercurrent of anger fell on.]

...Maybe I shouldn't do this at all. I don't have a clue what I'm doing.

[...he is so not qualified for any of this.]

You don't feel comfortable around Rudy anymore, do you? How about Koizumi?

[There's a long moment of silence while she thinks about it, going back to how they'd laughed and played board games and had ended the night on a pleasant note, after the frisson of terrible awkwardness when he'd so politely asked to court her. (Court her!) Finally she nods.]

We... we had a good time. It was nice to see him relax a little more than he does at the office.

[A smile tugs at her lips.]

He's actually a little terrible at board games. If he wasn't letting me win. But he said he wasn't, and I believe him.

[He sees the smile and smiles himself, stroking her hair once before pulling back.]

In that case, love, there's not going to come any harm from spending more time with him. And if you feel yourself really liking him, then you can see about becoming more than just friends.

I don't want to hurt him, though... I mean, what if, for some reason, I don't actually like him that way? What if I send the wrong signals? What if I get his hopes up and then I have to tell him no?

I bet he'd still prefer that to you not trying at all, don't you think? It's alright to figure things out for yourself. It's even alright to start dating and then stop again. It's not as if you have to get married after the first date.

Do you think so? It really hurts to be told it won't work... I'll... I'll think about it. Maybe ask him. [If she could ever get the courage. She sighs.] You're probably right, though. As usual. [Small smile for him this time.] I need to be braver, mostly, don't I.

I think you're pretty brave already. Just have to use that courage for yourself for a change. [He pulls her into a hug and smiles.]

Don't worry so much about it. Life can be about having fun. Love can, too.

[She laughs a little, shaking her head, but hugs him right back, grateful for the touch.]

If you think I'm brave, I'm not sure you've been paying attention. But thank you. I have no idea what I'm doing... But I'll try. Thank you for putting up with my rambling. I know I've kept you up.

Wasn't about to go to sleep, love. Don't apologize. We're friends, right?

That's what friends do.

Mm. I hope so, or you're going even further beyond what's necessary, and you're already doing far more than you should have to, you know. You're always ready to make time for me, it seems like.I just want you to know how much I appreciate it. You're too good to me.

Well, to be fair, my job literally consists of me just doing whatever I want to do and every now and then selling something, so it's not as if I'm all that busy. Unlike you.

Well... I like to be helpful. And people actually need me at the station. And the shelter. And Tim never really has time to get to all the research he needs, so it isn't as though it's time wasted. And it isn't as though you're doing nothing! Look at all these amazing things! I know you're successful. All those children who come in when they get their pocket money on the weekends. I can't imagine that you don't spend a lot of time with Miss Alisha, though. Or inventing things. I just hope you remember to sleep every now and then.

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