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-Even if our leader is swearing on )(is silly nubs t)(at )(e does not know w)(at )(appened...
I believe it goes wit)(out saying t)(at I am not t)(e -Empress.
I was never going to be!
Besides t)(e memories, w)(ic)( I can't really explain, t)(e t)(ing t)(at I s)(are wit)( )(er is a blood color.
And my lusus! Before s)(e died too.
Knowing t)(at, )(owever, and being in a w)(ole new place w)(ere I am sure t)(is was not supposed to )(appen at all...
I t)(ink w)(at I needed to say was...

I'm sorry.

PRIVATE TO ERIDAN, SOLLUX, KARKAT, ARADIA

Really sorry.

Comments

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

So, um ... I'm sorry. For giving Feferi a hard time. I guess I'm still pretty weirded out by all the stuff that's happened lately, and I guess I still don't really know everything that went on the last few days. And maybe I don't deal with conflict so well - I try to avoid it if I can, for the most part, and if I can't avoid it, my next choice is hiding in a dark closet where no one will think to look for me. I didn't mean to be a jerk, but I know I sometimes come off that way to people who don't know me well. I'm not really used to people actively trying to be my friend, like Feferi did, and I guess when she flipped over to threatening to kill me - even though it was someone else entirely, I still thought it was her - I just didn't know how to handle it. So I'm sorry about that.

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[ihateyouetc]

HEY, DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.
I WAS A PRETTY BIG ASSHOLE.

[ihateyouetc]

AND IT'S NOT LIKE I MADE IT EASY FOR ANYBODY TO UNDERSTAND WHERE I WAS COMING FROM
SINCE I GOT PISSED OVER IT INSTEAD OF LIKE
MAKING ANY COHERENT POINTS OR EXAMPLES.

[ihateyouetc]

I GUESS I'M SAYING
SORRY FOR BEING A TOOL

[ihateyouetc]

I FLIPPED MY SHIT SINCE TERRIBLE STUFF HAPPENED AND LIKE
EVEN IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME I KNEW IT WASN'T THEM
SO IT WAS EASIER FOR ME TO HANDLE WHEN EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL THAN I GUESS IT WOULD'VE BEEN
IF I THOUGHT IT WAS THEM
SO
REALLY
IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.

DONE.

[ihateyouetc]

BUT UH, DON'T TALK TO ERIDAN
HE WON'T KILL YOU OR ANYTHING BUT
TALKING TO HIM FOR ANY LENGTH OF TIME MAKES YOU WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM AND NEVER STOP.

:")

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

I guess this has been a valuable learning experience for both of us, then.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

And I will steer clear of Eridan. I'm sort of attached to having vocal cords.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

Um ... I really am sorry you got tortured to death, by the way.

[ihateyouetc]

UH.
THAT SOUNDS REALLY FUCKED UP WHEN YOU SAY IT LIKE THAT.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

Well ... it's accurate, right?

[ihateyouetc]

YEAH. I GUESS
I JUST DIDN'T THINK OF IT LIKE THAT.

[ihateyouetc]

BUT THANKS.
IT'S FINE. I MEAN, I'M ALIVE NOW
SO I'M NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

That's probably for the best.

[ihateyouetc]

ANYWAY, IT'S NOT IMPORTANT.
SORRY YOU HAD TO DEAL WITH OUR SHIT.
NORMALLY I CAN STOP IT BEFORE IT GETS TOO BAD
BUT I WASN'T MYSELF SO IT DIDN'T HAPPEN THAT TIME.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

Well, if you weren't yourself, I can't very well blame you for it.

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

I guess what I'm trying to say, Karkat, is that I don't harbor any hard feelings over this. OK?

[ihateyouetc]

YEAH, ME NEITHER.

[ihateyouetc]

THANK FUCKING GOD
NOW THAT THIS IS OUT OF THE WAY
WE CAN GET BACK TO BITCHING ABOUT OTHER SHIT
INSTEAD OF HAVING AWKWARDLY DOCILE CONVERSATIONS

[misery-chic.livejournal.com]

I'm looking forward to the future.