☀ the first

[roseate]

I'll admit that the concept of reality as a mere persistent illusion is hardly a new one, but this seems to me to be a very strange way to prove a point. Empirical data would suggest that, since my admittedly paradoxical creation, I have "been" and continue to "be". While it is an interesting theory to suggest that this is the "true" reality and my previous existence was "fiction," I am afraid this only serves to that solidify the popular idea that reality is only state of mind, and thus "this" reality can be no more or just as real as my previous definition of the word. As it is, I do not believe the psychiatric evaluation was quite necessary, considering I am not the one demanding others recognize that their existence up until this point of time was the product of another being's imagination. Then again, I have not been to medical school. I suppose requesting to see authentic documentation of such education would only be met with more assertions that, not being real until this moment, I could not possibly recognize which prestigious university mailed out its diplomas for the low, low price of six payments of $99.95. Such is the plight of the erstwhile fictional.

I would like to accuse the kind doctors of several things, involving the terms "gaslighting" and perhaps "Schrodinger's reality", but I believe I would much rather know if this network operates in the manner I suspect it does - and if so, if there are any familiar faces in my audience.