[ She takes another bite of the ice cream (oddly surprised that it does help a little bit), contemplating this in silence for a few long moments. When she finally does speak, it is slow and deliberate. She, too, is trying to find the right way to say this. ] But if I can do something, I should. I have done many bad things. I want to do good things. But you are right. I cannot do good things if I simply think about what I could have done.
Yes, exactly! You can't think about what you could have done, or what you should have done, because you didn't, and you couldn't be expected to know and you shouldn't be expected to save everyone. I could have prevented it, if I had known, but I didn't, and there's not really anything I can do about that-
[Probably, timelines are so odd here, she doesn't quite get how to navigate with her abilities so limited-]
- any more than you can now. I've been trying to explain this to Karkat forever, he does the same kind of thing. Everything that goes wrong, he thinks that it's his fault, and maybe sometimes it sort of is if you want to look at it that way, because he chose to do one thing when he could have chosen another. But nobody will hold that against him, and there isn't any way he could have known how it would turn out. So it's pointless for him to just sit there beating himself up for it. You never get anywhere if you do that, and you can't assume responsibility for everything and everybody's choices.
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Yes, exactly! You can't think about what you could have done, or what you should have done, because you didn't, and you couldn't be expected to know and you shouldn't be expected to save everyone. I could have prevented it, if I had known, but I didn't, and there's not really anything I can do about that-
[Probably, timelines are so odd here, she doesn't quite get how to navigate with her abilities so limited-]
- any more than you can now. I've been trying to explain this to Karkat forever, he does the same kind of thing. Everything that goes wrong, he thinks that it's his fault, and maybe sometimes it sort of is if you want to look at it that way, because he chose to do one thing when he could have chosen another. But nobody will hold that against him, and there isn't any way he could have known how it would turn out. So it's pointless for him to just sit there beating himself up for it. You never get anywhere if you do that, and you can't assume responsibility for everything and everybody's choices.