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Um...

This is going to be kind of a weird question. Sorry... I don't know how else to ask it. I guess you could say I grew up a little ... differently from everyone else. And I don't think I learned the same things everyone else did.

How do you figure out... when you're feeling something? How do you know what that feeling is? I always have trouble telling the difference...

How do you learn something like that?

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I guess ... read books ...

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What sort of books?

What books do you like, Riku?

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Any kind of books, as long as they're about fiction.

And me, I dunno. I liked Gulliver's Travels growing up. Everyone said it was a bit too much for me, but he got to travel all over. I liked that.

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Gulliver's Travels? What's that?

Maybe I should go spend some time in the library. I guess it might help.

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It's a book about a guy who travels to a bunch of different places. He sees the outside world. That's something I really wanted to do as a kid.

But yeah, it might. I'd skip any romance books. They'll just confuse you.

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Oh. So I guess you got your wish, huh?

Um... I'm not even sure what romance is. So, I guess so.

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Yeah. Sort of.

Lea did a bad job teaching you guys stuff, huh?

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Sort of?

Well... I guess I never asked. It never really came up, either. Since... well, with everything Xemnas told us...

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I would've preferred if things went a little differently.

Yeah, I guess there was no point in talking about something you weren't supposed to have.

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Since we were always told we didn't have hearts and couldn't feel anything anyway... it was treated as not very important. Saix especially looked down on it.

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They wouldn't want it to be any other way. I think you were supposed to believe in that lie. That way, Xemnas ... Xehanort. That way he could get his way.

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... I guess it really was a lie. Everything I feel... it can't be fake.

But... I'm not like the others. I wonder if it's different for me than it is for everyone else...

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Of course it's not.

I think ... with the others, it might've taken a level of belief, and having someone to help remember what it was like to feel. Axel—Lea, he had you guys. The others? Not so much.

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... thanks, Riku.

I guess... it's just strange. Everyone besides Saix and Xemnas acted like they had feelings... even Xigbar. But we all kept pretending that there wasn't anything there... because we had to.

And all that time, Xemnas kept pushing us to get more hearts... I'll never forgive him. Never. I hope he never comes here.

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You're welcome.

Maybe Xigbar did because he knew he had them all along. From what I've heard, he treated everything like it was one big joke.

He won't last long if he does end up here. Between all of us ... and there's Aqua, from the past. Apparently, she's pretty strong.

He won't know what hit him.

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... it's true. He really did. You know... I finally looked up his nickname that he always used to use for me. I almost wish I hadn't. He really was making fun of me all along.

... that's true. Especially with Sora here. I just... I know it's silly to wish I could change the past, but sometimes I wish I'd never listened to him at all.

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Yeah, the good thing is ... we know better now. On both counts.

I've not always listened to the right person, either. But we know that's not gonna happen again.

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... he used to call me Poppet.

Riku... I know we've both learned from past mistakes, but are we really going to be able to tell if we're just making new ones? How will we know?

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... I'm sorry he did that.

We won't know. I think that's why we have our friends.

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Don't be. I never used to mind it... but only because I didn't know what he was saying. At least he's not here to do it anymore.

.... we can trust them. Right? They'd help us figure it out. That's why ... we're friends.

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Of course we can trust them.

And we can help them, too, you know.

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... we can? How?

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Through being there for them. And there are some things that we can give advice on, too.

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... I can do something like that? You really think so?

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Yeah.

Of course.