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So here's the thing: ignoring the whole not technically real bit-- since, y'know, been there, done that long enough, thanks-- I gotta give credit to this world for somehow trapping me here. Noooot exactly something that's ever happened to me before. Way to go! Buuut I'm getting ahead of things. Kinda jumped right in with the dialogue without properly introducing myself, woops. The name's Lea. Got it memorized?

Great, now that I've got that covered, I've just got a couple of questions I'd like answered. First off, anyone seen any kids with giant keys hanging around? Or, well, okay, anyone with a giant key, I guess. It prooobably sounds weird, but it's kind of important. Aaand the other thing is, all kudos to the world barrier for being able to block me aside, is there anyone here working on figuring that thing out? 'Cause if there is, I'd definitely be willing to be part of that getting-the-heck-out-of-here committee. Just sayin'!

Thaaat's pretty much it. Thanks.

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[lea is taking that as roxas expressing the fact that he is glad to see him and it's definitely time to pretend nothing dumb ever happened between them. :D yep. nothing at all. ever.]

I know, right? Instant travel just isn't what it used to be. [unfortunately for everyone involved, pretending everything is cool between them and always has been involves continuing terrible jokes.] Anyway... So, whaddya want to know? Specifically. I'll... I'll tell you everything, this time.

[except parts like "I died" or "I kidnapped a little girl" or really any part that makes him look bad because HAHAHAHAHA no.]

[One day he'll learn how to really decipher all of the inner-workings of Lea, but for now...no. No, for now he's just going to raise an eyebrow and laugh a tiny bit.]

Uh...everything? I want to know everything you can tell me. Answers are kind of important, don't you think?

Yeah, sure, but... That's kind of a lot. I was sorta hoping you could give me a starting point. [because seriously what Roxas doesn't know could... well, fit multiple games. coughs.]

I guess I kind of really want to know how you got a next life...

[there is a long. long. very long pause. he stares completely blankly at Roxas for the entire length of that exceedingly long pause. COULDN'T ROXAS PICK ANYTHING ELSE????????????? ANYTHING AT ALL??? he doesn't want to say this or talk about it but he just said he'd actually answer Roxas's question and WHY DID HE PROMISE THAT GDIT everything is awful]

I kind of... died.

[yeaaaah this is said 100% casually]

[That blank look's being given right back because ahaha what? What did you just say, Lea, because it sure sounded like death but that can't be, right?

....right...?]

...how? What happened?

[when a man and an explosion love each other very much-- wait, no, that won't work.]

Honestly... I guess I was just cleaning up my mess. [sighs and rubs the back of his head] We're kinda skipping a few steps here, but-- when someone's Nobody and their heartless get destroyed, they turn back into who they were before. That's why it's Lea now. Get it?

[that's not answering roxas's question at all he knows but he's trying to find a diplomatic way to admit to heroic suicide for sora]

[That totally doesn't explain anything, and the look on his face probably says as much. He's just trying to think of where to start.] No. What mess? You're not making sense again.

[he doesn't like to talk about feelings and himself and now he has to do both, he is admittedly floundering]

I know. I'm guessin' there's a no take-backsies policy on the whole "tell you everything" thing, huh? [waves it off] Kidding. Look... when you merged with Sora, I quit the Organization. Took me long enough, but I-- there was nothing keeping me there. And then I... did... some dumb stuff.

[so close. so close. and yet. so far.]

[...so they both left. Okay. Okay that wins Lea some points at least. His posture relaxes a little more and he leans forward to give Lea his total undivided attention. This is important, but he's totally stalling and Roxas doesn't like that.] But...you do dumb stuff sometimes. How's that any different?

Gee. Thanks. [he deadpans that, but he's obviously amused. He's glad to see Roxas relax around him, even though that is really not going to last with what he's saying next.] I tried to get you back by turning Sora into a Heartless.

[there were better ways to say it, and Lea considered every single one of them, but. He is genuinely sorry for the entire thing.]

[He just grins in response because hey, sorry, it's funny. That grin quickly plummets though as soon as Lea says the next statement, and suddenly he's standing up to walk closer.]

...you did what. [Really, he's not even sure what he's upset about. That logic probably makes sense if he stopped long enough to think about it, but he's not. He's just focused on "I tried doing something to Sora."]

[Lea winces a bit but doesn't step back even as Roxas advances, just looks away as he continues talking.]

It's not like I even got anywhere close to succeeding. I kidnapped Sora's other best friend, but she got away from me. The Organization already knew what I was doing-- it didn't matter to them, whether it was you or Sora, so long as someone was slaying Heartless. But... Kairi was pretty good leverage to make sure Sora did what they wanted. [he sighs before shaking his head in defeat] Saïx got her.

...[Give him think about this for a sec.] Kairi...that girl. [Except his eyes narrow as he hears the news.] Saix? You let Saix take her?

[lea looks at least mildly offended at that accusation, even though that is sort of what happened.] I didn't let him. I told you, she got away from me, and-- he just caught up to her first.

[because he was looking for Axel :T]

No. No, something's not adding up. [He stops short of Lea, just staaaring up at him with a frown.] What was he doing there?

[Lea looks up and sighs before looking straight at Roxas, serious] I told you. You can't turn on the Organization. I used to be the one who took care of the traitors. Since I was the turncoat this time... they sent Saïx.

["BUT WHY SAIX?" Okay that is still something he doesn't get but that's not important.] What did he do to her? What did you do after he took her?

[NEVER EXPLAINING HIS FRIENDSHIP WITH SAIX EVER. Also, probably because he was one of the few who could beat up Axel on top of the irony let's be real they weren't sending demyx on that job] They kept her prisoner in the castle. I was-- well, I was mostly trying not to get caught, at that point. I wasn't about to let that guy erase me. [it didn't work out and he was caught anyway but hey no one needs to know that!! waves it off] Anyway... Sora'd found a way into the dark portals through the virtual Twilight Town you were stuck in. Not his best idea to go in there blind, and the second he stepped in... It was like they stuck the entire lower Nobody population in there, I swear. [he makes a show of rolling his eyes]

[Oh, someday you will sir. Someday. For now though Roxas is just kind of putting the pieces together really, really slowly.] So...Sora went after Kairi, but the Organization knew and sent a bunch of Nobodies after him to stop him. So he had to fight inside the portals. Right?

[Give him a few more minutes to puzzle it out. His lips are moving even though he's not talking, and he's kind of using his hands to draw invisible diagrams.]

...wait a minute. If you tried turning Sora into a heartless that means you guys met...in the portals. [And something clicks. His eyes narrow and his nostrils flare a bit.] Sora killed you? [Oh he is not happy about that conclusion.]

[He can't help but smile a bit when Roxas starts to try to figure it out by himself. He is stupidly fond of that dumb kid, wow. Of course, the conclusion is all wrong, but Lea has been pretty vague on the details... Speaking of the conclusion-- he can't help it, the second Roxas says "Sora killed you", Lea laughs.]

Nah. Not even close. Sorry, I guess I should've said... I planned to turn him into a heartless. That kinda fell apart when I lost Kairi. [he rubs the back of his neck helplessly] The whole thing was pretty convoluted from the start, so just ignore the plan part, okay? The point is, because of that, Kairi was in the Castle, Sora was stuck trying to get to her, and I... well, I was there. [shrugs] I decided to help him out of that situation.

[Give him another few minutes to start thinking this through again...

...so...if Lea is a person, and that means Axel the Nobody died...and Axel the Nobody was the last person he saw, but then he saw Sora in a tunnel of Nobodies and Sora's apparently still totally fine...]

...no. [That's not a good conclusion. That's crazy talk! Why would Axel become a distraction and take out the Nobodies to make sure Sora got away?]

You're starting to get the full picture, huh? [it's a wry smile] At first, I just wanted to clear the way for him. It's not like I went in there with the idea of-- [he sighs and shakes his head] I was at the end of my rope, anyway. I put all I had left into one attack. [there's a dramatic pause because he's still being vague, sort of]

Well, I'd always wanted to go out with a bang.

[probably not the best time to joke w o o p s]

[...give him a moment before a hand comes flying and thwaps Lea right in the chest as hard as he can. Which probably doesn't even reach his chest lbr the kid's tiny.]

Don't even joke about that! How could you do? What if it didn't even work!?

[the chest is probably the highest roxas can reach if we're being optimistic??also he is a tiny child with small but powerful fists, ow. He rubs at it halfheartedly and makes a face at Roxas's insinuation]

Didn't work-- what do you take me for? Of course I could handle some Dusks. [he shakes his head and looks away after that, though] It didn't matter either way. I didn't have anything left to lose. So I decided to put everything I had towards saving Sora and giving him a way to the Organization's base.