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[redhourglass]

[ you know who has two thumbs and is over this? this girl. it hadn't been the first time she'd woken up in a hospital bed with a dim memory of the last twenty-four hours, but natasha had to admit it was a little unique to be told that she was previously fictional and now she'd somehow become real. right. let's talk to the nice people and see how this goes. ]

I was looking forward to a long island vacation, but this wasn't quite what I meant.

[ a long sigh. mostly a put-on, but hey, some of it is actual exasperation. she wanted to be on a beach somewhere far away from space aliens. ]

Is there anyone around here who actually knows what is going on? Who hasn't just arrived, but who's been here and has some solid information?

[ she'll address the whole 'fictional' thing later. when she's not managing her temper underneath the surface of collected calm. ]

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text; I am sorry for this one

[trainwrecked]

Other than what I regret teaching you? I suppose not.

text; oh my god sobbing

[redhourglass]

... james.

that was a long time ago. a life time ago.

text; he'd be so sorry for this if he. Recovers himself. SO SORRY.

[trainwrecked]

Winter Soldier.

text; sob. she'll try and get him back.

[redhourglass]

james.

if you're going to call me a traitor, at least call me by my name.

text; asonetuaoe if anyone can manage it, it's her and Steve, lbr.

[trainwrecked]

What else am I supposed to call you, Natalia?

text; dak;nveiadsn;lkad

[redhourglass]

[ natalia. a name she hasn't heard in forever. her heart pounds in her throat. ]

you want to be a slave to those people forever?
is that what you want for yourself? for me?

i had another choice, a way out

text; UGH nobody let Bucky talk with people. Not until he has his head back on straight.

[trainwrecked]

We were nobody before made us who we are. Is that slavery? There is a reason for us to do what they command.

There always will be.

Your choice is a disgrace.

text; sobbing

[redhourglass]

i never had a chance to be somebody, james. i was a child. the world is different now.

text; all of the sobbing. Buck, stop.

[trainwrecked]

You had the chance to be what your people needed. Or does that matter less than a person's whim?

text; bucky stop. bucky why.

[redhourglass]

my people did not need another assassin, another killer.

i was only a pawn for them.

text; I AM SORRY he will have to make it up to her.

[trainwrecked]

Everybody is a pawn, always. Being here is being a pawn, too. Then, you had a purpose.

One person capable and willing to kill means many others can find peace in normal lives.

text;

[redhourglass]

i have a purpose here, too. i have a purpose now.

it wasn't just one person, and you know it. they were training others.

text;

[trainwrecked]

Do you? Or do you delude yourself that you have one?

It is a very big country. Many times many people. Or have you forgotten?

text;

[redhourglass]

no. i was deluding myself then.

... how could i forget? it was my home long before it became yours.

text;

[trainwrecked]

So that is how you do it? Telling yourself things such as that?

It has always been my home.

text.

[redhourglass]

you don't understand.

you've been brainwashed, james.

text.

[trainwrecked]

I don't need to understand. Only to do what needs to be done.

text.

[redhourglass]

there is no one here giving you orders

what now?

text.

[trainwrecked]

There are always standing orders.

text

[redhourglass]

and yours are...?

text

[trainwrecked]

Standard.

[Survive. Recon. Eliminate anybody who would be a danger. Return to handler.]

text.

[redhourglass]

you won't consider doing anything else?

text.

[trainwrecked]

Not until objectives have been completed, or there is a necessary delay.

text.

[redhourglass]

james.

there has to be something else.

text. he's not done yet, clearly.

[trainwrecked]

I thought there was, for a while.