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[ricinbeans]

So, uh. Kinda weird question. But I gotta ask.

Anyone ever had these weird dreams... but it's like, you know they're not dreams, they're real? And you remember stuff. A lot of stuff. Stuff you didn't remember before.

That's not normal, right? Maybe I got a fever. Maybe I'm sick or totally losin' it but it's, uh, it's not— I mean, it was real. I know it was real.



[ Private: Mr. Lau ]

Hey, so I can make this official if you want, with like a two weeks notice or whatever, but I'm out. For good. I'm really sorry, Mr. Lau. It's got nothing to do with you, you're a great boss. I just need to get out.

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[ricinbeans]

[ someone sounds like shit because he's been crying his baby brains out for hours ]

Seriously? Okay, it's not just me, so— what did you do with that? Uh, if you don't mind me askin'.

[ audio ]

[icanbuyafez]

Honestly? Locked myself away for a couple weeks until I came to terms with it. ...Not the healthiest way to deal with it, I know. But two hundred years is a lot to take in. Especially - well.

Anyway, there's not much you can do about it. It's like we're suddenly living two different lives, and only one of them is aware of the other. Try to learn from it, if you can - but don't let it affect your life here too much, because you can't affect it.

If... if you need help working through it. Let me know.

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[ricinbeans]

How the hell are you supposed to not let it affect you? You can't see that shit and think oh well, that's just some other poor jackass, sucks for him. Good thing that's not really me! And then what? Keep doin' what you've been doin? No, man. Hell no.

The whole hermit thing sounds good though, thanks.

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[icanbuyafez]

I didn't... I didn't mean it like that. I mostly just meant - try not to worry about stuff you can't change. The new experiences will change you, of course they will. That's okay. It's not exactly natural, nobody's meant to have two lives - but it's okay. Just don't let it tear you apart.

Try not to be gone too long - people will start worrying, and as it goes on, it gets easier to just stay away. I shouldn't have locked myself away as long as I did - it was just hard to face everyone.

...If you need somewhere to be alone, there are places in the TARDIS where no-one will ever find you.

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[ricinbeans]

Yeah as nice as that sounds, whatever the hell a TARDIS is or whatever, I don't think the kids I got lookin' out for me are gonna let me disappear for a second. Thanks for the offer though.

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[icanbuyafez]

Oh. All right. You said the hermit thing sounded good, so I though...

Well, anyway. Let me know if you need anything. If you want to talk... I understand a little of what you're going through.