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-Even if our leader is swearing on )(is silly nubs t)(at )(e does not know w)(at )(appened...
I believe it goes wit)(out saying t)(at I am not t)(e -Empress.
I was never going to be!
Besides t)(e memories, w)(ic)( I can't really explain, t)(e t)(ing t)(at I s)(are wit)( )(er is a blood color.
And my lusus! Before s)(e died too.
Knowing t)(at, )(owever, and being in a w)(ole new place w)(ere I am sure t)(is was not supposed to )(appen at all...
I t)(ink w)(at I needed to say was...

I'm sorry.

PRIVATE TO ERIDAN, SOLLUX, KARKAT, ARADIA

Really sorry.

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I SERIOUSLY DON'T GET IT EITHER
BUT THE ONLY THING THEY HAVE IN COMMON IS THEIR APPEARANCE AND BLOOD COLOR.

So why is she apologizing for it? And those other ones- that was Vriska and John and you, right?

S)(ees)(, always doing t)(ings t)(e )(ard way.
I will tell you.
If you would really like to know, of course.

uh Yeah. Sure.

I am not apologizing because I was t)(e one w)(o committed t)(e crimes.
As I'm sure you may )(ave gat)(ered from Karkat's ridiculous screaming.
In fact, I )(ave never killed anybody!
I am apologizing on t)(e be)(alf of t)(e awful memories I )(ave in lig)(t of t)(e color of my blood.
For t)(e deat)(s t)(at were not prevented in t)(e face of t)(e malice and ignorance appropriated by t)(at blood.
Maybe it is not my place to do so!! I don't know.
But I feel it's only rig)(t to try.

Edited 2011-10-09 08:15 (UTC)

Sorry you have bad memories. You really don't seem like a bad person, this whole thing shouldn't make you feel like one.

I suppose t)(ey would be t)(e -Empress's memories.
T)(at I also some)(ow remember...
Umm to be )(onest, I am not sure )(ow all of t)(is works yet! 38(
Despite memories being kind of my t)(ing.
But I do not wis)( to see anybody's friends fig)(ting over t)(is.
Yours or mine.

Yeah.

Look, I know it's different, because I think what happened to me before was still me, or future!Me at least.. But the last time this weird "hallucination" happened, I tried to kill a lot of people. I hurt my best friend. If you need anybody to talk to who might get it, I can listen or whatever.

Victor!!! 38'(
T)(is )(appened to you before as well??
It doesn't really sound so different at all...

Yeah. Earlier this year. I turned into this person I've been trying to avoid.

Mmm. I t)(ink I understand t)(is too, t)(en.

BECAUSE FEFERI ACTUALLY KNOWS NONE OF YOU WILL FUCKING GET IT AND YOU'LL AUTOMATICALLY ASSOCIATE HER WITH THE EMPRESS -- AND LO AND BEHOLD, SHE WAS RIGHT!

Karkat, I don't want to fight with you, but this is confusing so cut people some slack. Including me.

WHO THE FUCK JUMPED IN ON THIS SAYING SOMETHING FUCKING SHITTY LIKE WE DON'T NEED TO JUMP DOWN SOMEONE'S GODDAMN THROAT BECAUSE BEING THREATENED WITH MURDER ISN'T AN EVERYDAY OCCURRENCE???
IN CASE YOU DIDN'T NOTICE, THE PROBLEM I HAD WITH THAT HUMAN GIRL IS FUCKING SOLVED.
COMPREHENSION ALL UP IN THIS BITCH.
I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO MEDIATE MY SHIT OR TELL ME HOW I SHOULD BE ACTING.

I was just trying--

Forget it.

LOOK, I'M NOT STUPID
I KNOW WHAT YOU WERE DOING
AND I'M NOT EVEN PISSED OFF AT YOU FOR THAT PART
BUT IT'S ANNOYING AS FUCK YOU BASICALLY WANTED ME TO STOP DEFENDING FEFERI.

Karkat, I wouldn't ask you not to defend your friends. That's what friends do. I just wish you could be nicer sometimes.

YEAH, WELL.
I'M NOT THAT GUY WHO DIED.

Do you think I'm saying I like him better than you?

WHAT
NO
THAT'S COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS. IF THAT'S WHAT I MEANT THEN I'D SAY IT
BUT I DIDN'T SAY IT
SO THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT

Okay.

OK, GREAT. GLAD THAT'S COVERED.

JOHN WAS JOHN, BUT I GUESS HE CAME FROM A DIFFERENT TIMELINE.
SAME WITH JADE, WHO KNEW JOHN BUT DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT US. OR EVEN WHAT TROLLS WERE.
I DON'T KNOW WHY THEY DIDN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING.
VRISKA WAS VRISKA, PROBABLY SHORTLY AFTER HATCHING.
I DON'T KNOW WHO I WAS.
ANY MEMORIES I HAVE OF THE STUFF HE THOUGHT ARE MESSED UP AND CONFUSING AND THEY KINDA FREAK ME OUT
HE KNEW WHO I WAS EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T ALIVE YET
AND HE KNEW HE WAS GOING TO DIE.
MAYBE FEFERI HAS A BETTER GRIP ON IT THAN I DO
SO YOU MIGHT GET A BETTER ANSWER FROM HER.

Vriska said something about ancestors?