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Equius Zahhak ([personal profile] freakystrong) wrote in [community profile] thoughtformed2013-04-05 09:39 pm

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D --> I am a bit confused as to the purpose of this world
D --> Or even where e%actly it is located
D --> I presume this is another dream bubble, but it seems to be overrun by humans
D --> None of whom appear to be the humans I am semi-familiar with
D --> And I must admit, it angers me to be called fictional
D --> Being dead does not alter the state of one’s realness
D --> Also, what is this sch001feeding the humans are speaking of
D --> I am no wiggler, I do not need to be sch001fed
D --> I am, in fact considerably older than I 100k
D --> Possibly
D --> I would appreciate an e%planation, as I have been forbidden to smash any more things
maiditoutalive: (not a ghost but a god)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-04-18 02:34 pm (UTC)(link)
well we are friends arent we
it would be a good idea to talk about some of this stuff
if you feel ready to
you did just get here
maiditoutalive: (wings)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-04-26 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
where are you
i can come find you and we can talk
maiditoutalive: (shoulder glance)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-04-28 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
ok stay there

[But of course, she has a cheat. She can be there in the next moment, between one and a next, and because this is where she's apparently meant to be there she is. She can be there the moment she needs to be while spending time seeking out Karkat's advice and wondering how to put this, to give herself the time to sort it all out in her head.

She doesn't look the same as she used to; she's only a little taller, than she used to be, but a little fuller too, her hair bigger and her clothes a different kind of obnoxious than bright red God Tier, in her red sweater patterned with ghosts and her bright red boots, her symbol carefully stitched into the fabric of her skirt. She would look almost ordinary, if not for the fact that nobody wears ghost sweaters in spring, and she weren't rather alien compared to everybody else.
]

Hi.

[It's not as brightly as she might have greeted somebody else, but she still smiles.]

We don't have to talk about anything if you want to wait until you get settled in, you know.
maiditoutalive: (tragedy (equius))

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-03 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. [She's not sure what else to say...but after a long moment she moves forward, and wraps her arms around him very carefully. It's the least she can do. Despite their difficulties, she's- well, she's happy to see him. In her own way, which if full of ambivalence and worry and uncertainty on how to tell him what she needs to tell him. But she bears him less ill will than some people, and has more depth of feeling for him than others.] I really am glad to see you. I imagine you probably have a lot you want to say too.
maiditoutalive: (sollux?)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-03 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Of all things he might have said, that's not what Aradia would have expected.]

What are you sorry for? [She can think of a lot of things she would like for him to apologize for, and she can't quite look up at his face to ask him what's going on. But she can hope that maybe, maybe maybe maybe, he'll apologize for one of the right things. Even if it's too late for him to reclaim or stake a claim to her red quadrant now.]
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[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-04 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh. Oh oh oh, of all the things he might have said, Aradia would never have hoped that he would say something like that. He'd never apologized, not truly, for what he did with the heart and her soulbot; she wasn't sure he ever would, really, if he could understand what was so wrong about it.]

I'm- really glad you understand, Equius.

[She lets go of him, thinking it's already dragged on too long, but she can't hide the surprise in her face when she pulls back, though she didn't mean for him to see. She's not trying to hurt his feelings.]
maiditoutalive: (till death do us part (equius))

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-04 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
Of course I accept it! Honestly I've been hoping you would come around and see why that made things so difficult for awhile now, but we didn't really get it quite as ironed out as that.

[What else is she going to say, really? It's a weight off her shoulders, to know that he actually, finally, understands why she was so upset. It doesn't change anything that she needs to tell him, but it makes it a little easier to hope that he'll be ok with what she has to say.]
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[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-04 03:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's not quite what she wants to say, but she would never try to claim it wasn't along some of those lines.

Everybody said to just be honest. This can't come as so much of a surprise, can it?
]

I don't think we should be in quadrants anymore.
maiditoutalive: (death behind me)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-09 08:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ah yes, there it is. She knew he would say something like that.

Aradia always has a reason, for why she does what she does, or she tries to. Logically, she had one for that too. But if she's honest, it was easier to just get lost in doing other things, spending all the time on that, and not looking at the vague pangs of guilt. He had Aradiabots! She didn't really feel too sorry about it, thinking him better off- except apparently not, after all. Now, now, she feels well and truly guilty. She could have at least given him an explanation.
]

You didn't need me anymore, Equius.
maiditoutalive: (maid of time and made of death)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-09 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[She doesn't try to make him look at her, but she's not going to give way on this point.]

No, you don't. You want me to stay with you, but the truth is that you don't need me. You don't need me to help you accomplish anything. You don't need me to have a purpose or carry on with your life, even your life in death. You don't need my encouragement. You didn't even need me to be me. That's not a condemnation, it's just a fact.
maiditoutalive: (ghost of regrets past)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-09 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[That was harsh. She didn't need to be that harsh. She hesitates, for a moment, before reaching out to pat his arm, gently, as though she can offer him any kind of comfort.]

I'm not the same person I used to be. [What does she say?] And I don't think we can make each other happy.
maiditoutalive: (it will be alright)

[personal profile] maiditoutalive 2013-05-09 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I know you would.

[And he really would. He would do whatever he thought he had to, to make her happy. It's one of his more touching qualities, that he tries and offer everything, and that he offers it without expecting anything in return.]

But you deserve somebody who can make you happy, as yourself.

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