Equius Zahhak (
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D --> I am a bit confused as to the purpose of this world
D --> Or even where e%actly it is located
D --> I presume this is another dream bubble, but it seems to be overrun by humans
D --> None of whom appear to be the humans I am semi-familiar with
D --> And I must admit, it angers me to be called fictional
D --> Being dead does not alter the state of one’s realness
D --> Also, what is this sch001feeding the humans are speaking of
D --> I am no wiggler, I do not need to be sch001fed
D --> I am, in fact considerably older than I 100k
D --> Possibly
D --> I would appreciate an e%planation, as I have been forbidden to smash any more things
D --> Or even where e%actly it is located
D --> I presume this is another dream bubble, but it seems to be overrun by humans
D --> None of whom appear to be the humans I am semi-familiar with
D --> And I must admit, it angers me to be called fictional
D --> Being dead does not alter the state of one’s realness
D --> Also, what is this sch001feeding the humans are speaking of
D --> I am no wiggler, I do not need to be sch001fed
D --> I am, in fact considerably older than I 100k
D --> Possibly
D --> I would appreciate an e%planation, as I have been forbidden to smash any more things
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D --> And any significant occurrences you believe warrant mentioning
D --> I am very pleased to see your text again
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theyre rather strange
think of them like sgrubs side quests but even more ridiculous and without enemies and then you reach the end and you maybe dont even get a reward
i have been here nearly nine months by human measures of time
you arrived around the same time i did but you left late last fall
you wont remember that but its ok nobody ever does
we almost went to homecoming together?
i cant think of anything else you would find significant
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D --> How did we almost return home
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i dont think anybody really knows
they just tell you that people have been released and theyre just gone one day
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D --> That sounded promising
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no no homecoming is a school event to celebrate something related to human sports
its like a big party
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and somebody else asked me to go with them
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D --> Yes, I suppose that makes sense
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i am not doing a very good job
i know this must seem really abrupt and im not expressing myself very well
i really am happy to see you
i am glad that you seem to be all right
but there are probably some things that we should talk about
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D --> I would be pleased to speak with you at any time you desired
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it would be a good idea to talk about some of this stuff
if you feel ready to
you did just get here
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D --> You didn't seem interested after I died
D --> Or rather, you didn't see me at all, so I didn't know
D --> But I would very much like to talk to you, whenever you cared to
D --> There is little else that could take precedence
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i can come find you and we can talk
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D --> I believe I am awaiting housing assignment
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[But of course, she has a cheat. She can be there in the next moment, between one and a next, and because this is where she's apparently meant to be there she is. She can be there the moment she needs to be while spending time seeking out Karkat's advice and wondering how to put this, to give herself the time to sort it all out in her head.
She doesn't look the same as she used to; she's only a little taller, than she used to be, but a little fuller too, her hair bigger and her clothes a different kind of obnoxious than bright red God Tier, in her red sweater patterned with ghosts and her bright red boots, her symbol carefully stitched into the fabric of her skirt. She would look almost ordinary, if not for the fact that nobody wears ghost sweaters in spring, and she weren't rather alien compared to everybody else.]
Hi.
[It's not as brightly as she might have greeted somebody else, but she still smiles.]
We don't have to talk about anything if you want to wait until you get settled in, you know.
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I don't think there is any real point in waiting. [He's just staring at her, and though his eyes are covered, when it comes to her he's always been pretty easy to read.]
You're still very lovely. [And he must have learned something in all that time being dead, because he doesn't qualify it with anything, doesn't say 'for one of your low breeding', or make some comment about her casual clothing.]
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I am not sure what I would say. [he admits in a soft voice] I have had a great deal of time to think, but ... perhaps just that I am sorry.
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What are you sorry for? [She can think of a lot of things she would like for him to apologize for, and she can't quite look up at his face to ask him what's going on. But she can hope that maybe, maybe maybe maybe, he'll apologize for one of the right things. Even if it's too late for him to reclaim or stake a claim to her red quadrant now.]
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I wanted you to be a thing which perhaps you weren't. I mistook certain attributes of yours for your whole being, and thought all I had to do was fix the rest.
I believe now that you probably did not need fixing.
[He's grateful she's not looking up - it's hard to admit to such a wrong doing, different than confessing little peccadilloes in the hope of chastisement. This is a real thing he did, and the part of his old self hanging on is furious at him for apologizing to a lowblood for trying to better her station. But he suspects he never really made her happy, not in the way other trolls did, and for that he really is sorry. It makes him feel like a failure, and not in the pleasant, perverse way.]
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I'm- really glad you understand, Equius.
[She lets go of him, thinking it's already dragged on too long, but she can't hide the surprise in her face when she pulls back, though she didn't mean for him to see. She's not trying to hurt his feelings.]
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[He's hiding in formal words now, still not looking up.]
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[What else is she going to say, really? It's a weight off her shoulders, to know that he actually, finally, understands why she was so upset. It doesn't change anything that she needs to tell him, but it makes it a little easier to hope that he'll be ok with what she has to say.]
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What did you wish to speak with me about?
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