(angry) text; EDITED LATER TO BE LOCKED

[hypertoxic]

[ Being forced to answer this post and admit something she'd rather not have has left Vriska pretty peeved. She is not down with your shit, New Moore, and she is going to take her revenge. ]

What's a secret you've 8een just dying to tell someone a8out 8ut couldn't? Now's your chance! Let it all out. We're all 8eing forced into this anyway!

[ She is hoping others will be snagged like she was and forced into answering.

And it will end well if they are. ]

(ooc; Feel free to thread jack the hell out of this post if you want to leap on someone saying something shocking! GO NUTS. Interested parties are also EXTREMELY FREE to go leap on Vriska and Sherlock's thread with their own comments.

regarding the post edit: Vriska will have made good on her word and locked the post to private. Private, however, only to those who have already seen it, so no one else can stumble into it. However, if you still want to tag in, feel free! We'll all just say it came in before she locked the post. Carry on with your life ruining.)

Comments

[badnewsboy]

You wish for others to be miserable with you because there's no escape.

[hypertoxic]

Yes.

[badnewsboy]

[he's surprised at the words that come next.]

Fight it.

[hypertoxic]

[ Oh. What? That supersedes some of her anger at him, just a little. ]

How?

[badnewsboy]

Do something to remind yourself of the person you wish to be, and the person that haunts you.

[hypertoxic]

Like what? I don't know how to do that.
I don't know how to do much 8esides 8e who I am. And that person is pretty fucking terri8le.

[badnewsboy]

Despite what I've said, I don't believe it. There is no one who's born terrible. I won't believe it. We can do terrible things--there are many who claim that they're good and avert their eyes to what they inflict on others.

No one is terrible.

We allow ourselves change. That's how we win.

[hypertoxic]

I have 8een killing practically since I could walk on two legs.
I don't know how to change. I've never 8een anything else!
I don't even know how to start learning.

[badnewsboy]

I'm uncertain myself.

Someone told me once that it is our own path to walk, and though no one may walk it with you, that there will be company.

But I will tell you with all certainty, if knew of nothing else in the Nine Realms, that there are never those that are born evil.

[badnewsboy]

Ah, I've

[badnewsboy]

messed up again, haven't I?

[hypertoxic]

........
May8e not.
8ut that still doesn't mean I know how to stop.
I wish I did. I wish I knew how to actually fix it.
Messed up how?

[ She doesn't seem to think he has. He is getting through to her, slowly. Even if all he's really doing is making her feel broken and alone. At least it's no longer anger. ]

[badnewsboy]

Change does not come easy. For me, I remind myself. I look they tell me I've done, and I try to help others. Loki will always be Loki, and that's all I wish to be, but I know what comes with that, and I want to use that to be better, not someone else.

I like the feeling that happens when I help others. I will not be that person again.

[badnewsboy]

Ah, well, it seems that you and Aradia are having a battle over something that I've said and I

I didn't mean for it to turn out that way.

[hypertoxic]

I have 8een trying to help others for a long time!
It turns out I pretty much suck at it. ::::\
Anyway, yeah, you're 8asically a huge fucking idiot. 8ut no one's dead yet so I guess it's okay?

[badnewsboy]

Yes, thank you for the reminder.

[badnewsboy]

Sorry.

[hypertoxic]

........ are you really?
Sorry.
What are you even sorry for, making me mad?

[badnewsboy]

Partially. Even though you're frightening I still rather like you.

[hypertoxic]

What else are you sorry for?
I liked you too.
I don't know. Give me some time. It's not all that unusual for people to 8e in cahoots 8ehind my 8ack. You're not the first and you won't 8e the last!
Haha, Aradia won't like it if you keep talking to me, though.

[badnewsboy]

I am Loki. I'm in cahoots behind everyone's back. I'm a liar and a manipulator, a rather unsavory person of whom those of Asgard would warn you. There are tales of those who have been tortured beneath my foul intentions, though I don't remember it.

Yet as I am now, my intentions are not bad. They're not.

I was concerned for Aradia. I wanted to help her.

I'm sorry I made it worse.

[hypertoxic]

........
Apology accepted, Loki.
We're not so different, you and I.

[badnewsboy]

Perhaps not. And I'm still alive. You stopped yourself.

[hypertoxic]

Huh.
Yeah. I guess you're right. I did.
That might 8e the first time ever actually?
I've never really tried to hold 8ack 8efore.