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D --> I am a bit confused as to the purpose of this world
D --> Or even where e%actly it is located
D --> I presume this is another dream bubble, but it seems to be overrun by humans
D --> None of whom appear to be the humans I am semi-familiar with
D --> And I must admit, it angers me to be called fictional
D --> Being dead does not alter the state of one’s realness
D --> Also, what is this sch001feeding the humans are speaking of
D --> I am no wiggler, I do not need to be sch001fed
D --> I am, in fact considerably older than I 100k
D --> Possibly
D --> I would appreciate an e%planation, as I have been forbidden to smash any more things

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karkat tavros sollux
vriska eridan gamzee
meenah and aranea but youre not going to know who they are
and all of our humans plus their ectobiological relatives from their scratched session minus one
im sure karkat will be glad to explain everything when he sees youre here

D --> No, I am aware of Aranea and Meenah
D --> The other Serket and Peixes
D --> Though we have never interacted
D --> But I have spoken briefly to my ancestor and he named those he was acquainted with
D --> You could not explain it to me

oh good so youre that far along
i can try if thats what you want

D --> I would find that very pleasant

um
ok
where would you like me to start?

D --> Perhaps when you came here
D --> And any significant occurrences you believe warrant mentioning
D --> I am very pleased to see your text again

its sort of going to be hard to explain significant events if you werent here for them
theyre rather strange
think of them like sgrubs side quests but even more ridiculous and without enemies and then you reach the end and you maybe dont even get a reward
i have been here nearly nine months by human measures of time
you arrived around the same time i did but you left late last fall
you wont remember that but its ok nobody ever does
we almost went to homecoming together?
i cant think of anything else you would find significant

D --> Karkat says I have been here twice before
D --> How did we almost return home

i dont know :(
i dont think anybody really knows
they just tell you that people have been released and theyre just gone one day

D --> But you said we almost went together
D --> That sounded promising

OH
no no homecoming is a school event to celebrate something related to human sports
its like a big party

D --> Why did we not go

we were having some difficulties talking about us
and somebody else asked me to go with them

D --> Oh
D --> Yes, I suppose that makes sense

im sorry
i am not doing a very good job
i know this must seem really abrupt and im not expressing myself very well
i really am happy to see you
i am glad that you seem to be all right
but there are probably some things that we should talk about

D --> You're happy to see me
D --> I would be pleased to speak with you at any time you desired

well we are friends arent we
it would be a good idea to talk about some of this stuff
if you feel ready to
you did just get here

D --> I didn't know if we were friends
D --> You didn't seem interested after I died
D --> Or rather, you didn't see me at all, so I didn't know
D --> But I would very much like to talk to you, whenever you cared to
D --> There is little else that could take precedence

where are you
i can come find you and we can talk

D --> Near the facility in which new people are "welcomed"
D --> I believe I am awaiting housing assignment

ok stay there

[But of course, she has a cheat. She can be there in the next moment, between one and a next, and because this is where she's apparently meant to be there she is. She can be there the moment she needs to be while spending time seeking out Karkat's advice and wondering how to put this, to give herself the time to sort it all out in her head.

She doesn't look the same as she used to; she's only a little taller, than she used to be, but a little fuller too, her hair bigger and her clothes a different kind of obnoxious than bright red God Tier, in her red sweater patterned with ghosts and her bright red boots, her symbol carefully stitched into the fabric of her skirt. She would look almost ordinary, if not for the fact that nobody wears ghost sweaters in spring, and she weren't rather alien compared to everybody else.]

Hi.

[It's not as brightly as she might have greeted somebody else, but she still smiles.]

We don't have to talk about anything if you want to wait until you get settled in, you know.

[She'll never, ever look ordinary to him, no matter how long it's been since they were together.]

I don't think there is any real point in waiting. [He's just staring at her, and though his eyes are covered, when it comes to her he's always been pretty easy to read.]

You're still very lovely. [And he must have learned something in all that time being dead, because he doesn't qualify it with anything, doesn't say 'for one of your low breeding', or make some comment about her casual clothing.]

Thank you. [She's not sure what else to say...but after a long moment she moves forward, and wraps her arms around him very carefully. It's the least she can do. Despite their difficulties, she's- well, she's happy to see him. In her own way, which if full of ambivalence and worry and uncertainty on how to tell him what she needs to tell him. But she bears him less ill will than some people, and has more depth of feeling for him than others.] I really am glad to see you. I imagine you probably have a lot you want to say too.

[He freezes ... and then wraps his arms around her shoulders in return in that careful way of his, that way that says she's something precious that he's terrified of breaking. Though after a moment, that relaxes a little too, and he dips his head just so he can smell the mass of her dark hair, between her horns.]

I am not sure what I would say. [he admits in a soft voice] I have had a great deal of time to think, but ... perhaps just that I am sorry.

[Of all things he might have said, that's not what Aradia would have expected.]

What are you sorry for? [She can think of a lot of things she would like for him to apologize for, and she can't quite look up at his face to ask him what's going on. But she can hope that maybe, maybe maybe maybe, he'll apologize for one of the right things. Even if it's too late for him to reclaim or stake a claim to her red quadrant now.]